produced/written by G. Matthew Smith

EPISODE #44 (Thursday 6/21/01) click here for a printable version of this episode
same day - October 1935


Patterson Monroe43 Landings Ct., Albanyville, ILLorraine began to cry as she sat wrapped in Patterson's arms.  Why did this have to be so difficult?  Why did she have to be expecting Douglas' child?  How could she break his heart by telling him that she was going to marry Douglas?

"Oh, Lorraine, what is it?  You can tell me."  Patterson held her tightly and tried to hide his own fears.  Only something tragic could provoke such dire emotion from her and he was frightened to learn what it was.

She pulled away from him again, wiped her tears away, and took another calming breath.  "Patterson, I have to tell you something.  T-this is going to be the hardest thing I've ever had to say.  P-please don't interrupt me until I'm finished."

Patterson nodded his agreement, but tried to fight the knot that had begun to form in his stomach.  This didn't sound good.  Not good at all.

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Lorraine Blake43 Landings Ct., Albanyville, IL"Patterson, I...I..."  Lorraine couldn't do it.  She couldn't hurt Patterson like this.  But she had to.  "Patterson, I can't see you any more," she finally blurted out.

"W-what?"  His eyes grew wide with shock and confusion.  He couldn't have heard her correctly.  What did she mean she couldn't see him any more?  "Lorraine, I don't understand.  What are you talking about?"

"I meant exactly what I said."  She'd come this far; she couldn't back out now.  After taking a deep breath, she strengthened her resolve.  It had to be done.  "I said I couldn't see you anymore, Patterson.  We're over.  I cannot have a romantic relationship with you."

"Why?  Why are you acting like this?"  He recoiled in a flurry of panic and fear.  "I don't understand!  Why can't we see each other anymore?  What did I do?  Did I do something to upset you?  Is it my friendship with Stephanie?"  His mind raced as he tried to consider every possibility.  "TrevorThat's it!  You've gotten back together with Trevor Callison!"

"No, Patterson, no!"  Lorraine finally turned to face him and grabbed his shoulders firmly in an effort to calm him down.  "It's none of those things.  You've done nothing wrong!  It's not Stephanie; it's not's all me!  It's all my fault!  Oh, please try to understand!"

"How am I supposed to understand this?"  He quickly jumped up from his place on the couch and began to pace the room.  He ran his trembling hands through his hair as he tried to process Lorraine's announcement.  "If it's nothing I've done and it's not Stephanie or Trevor, then why?  Why, Lorraine?  I thought we were working on a future together!  I thought we'd come so far.  What happened?"

"Oh, Paddy, I can't see you anymore because...because..."  She looked away and swallowed hard as the tears began to streak her face.  "B-because I'm getting married!"

"W-what?  Married?  To who?"

"D-Douglas Davis!  I'm marrying Douglas Davis!"  She got up and rushed over to him and grabbed him.  "Oh, please, Paddy, please try to understand!"

Patterson Monroe"You're marrying Douglas Davis?"  He felt like the wind had been knocked out of him.  As he clutched his chest and fell back towards the foot of the stairs, he awkwardly reached out his hand to grab the railing and steady himself.  "How?  Why?  You've been seeing Douglas behind my back?   My god, Lorraine, how could you?"

"No, Patterson, no!"  She continued to hold on to him as she sobbed.  Lorraine just had to make him understand.  "I haven't been seeing Douglas behind your back.  I-I can't explain it.  I can't tell you why, but I have to marry Douglas."

"Are you in love with him, Lorraine?"  He inhaled deeply as he forced an exterior of calm to cover his body.  He watched her reactions carefully.

"Patterson, that doesn't matter."  She buried her head in her hands and rubbed her tear filled eyes.  "This is the way it has to be."

"But why, Lorraine?  Why?"

"Just leave it alone, Patterson!  Please!  I never wanted to hurt you.  Please believe that."

"I don't know what to believe, anymore."

Lorraine silently walked towards the front door and pulled it open.  She turned to look at him one more time, but quickly turned away.  "Good-bye, Patterson.  You'll never know exactly how much you mean to me, but this is the way things have to be."

As the door shut with a deafening thud, Patterson could no longer contain his grief and agony.  The emotions inside of him exploded as he grabbed a nearby vase and flung it across the room, shattering it.  Overcome by emotion, he slowly sank to the floor.  Lorraine was gone.  Everything he'd worked so hard far over the last year lay in ruins.  Now, she'd never be his wife...his future...a mother figure for Todd.  Whatever would he do now?


Joseph Hayne Rainey Memorial Negro HospitalDorothea Jackson"Calvin Tyrone Jackson, I want a word with you!" Dorothea announced as she burst into his office.

Calvin's eyes grew wide as he looked up from his desk and the various medical reports he'd been working on.  "Um, yes, Momma.  You sound upset.  What's wrong?"

"I think upset is an understatement!"  She felt her blood pressure begin to rise as she remembered Mary's revelation of how Calvin had come to her penthouse and ordered her to fire Dorothea.  "How dare you talk to Miss Mary about me and my job!  What business is it of yours?"

"What did that woman tell you?" he asked as he watched his mother closely.  "I'm sure she blew things way out of proportion!  I bet she made it sound like I physically attacked her and threatened her if she didn't force you to quit!"

"Miss Mary did nothing of the sort!"  Dorothea placed both her hands firmly on his desk and leaned forward at him.  "In fact, she was nothing but gracious!  She understands your concerns...I understand your concerns.  However, that does not mean you're right!"

"I most definitely am right, Momma!"  He quickly got up and walked around to the front of his desk and folded his arms firmly across his chest.  "That woman is using you!  Why can't you see that?"

"The only thing I see is a spoiled, petty little boy who insists on having everything his way!"  Dorothea took a deep breath to calm herself.  She hadn't intended on getting this upset.  "I would have expected a stunt like this out of Naomi, but never from you, Calvin.  Why?  Why do you insist on hurting me like this?"

Dr. Calvin Jackson"Hurting you?"  He reached out for her and pulled his mother into his arms.  "Oh, Momma, hurting you is the last thing I've ever wanted.  I just want better for you.  I don't want you to have to work and slave in some rich white lady's home when I'm more than able to take care of you."

"I understand that, Calvin."  Dorothea pulled away from him and looked him directly in the eyes.  "But can't you see that I don't work for Miss Mary because I have to?  I work for her because I want to.  I know you're more than able to take care of me, but I want to be able to take care of myself."

"Momma why can't you understand?"

"No, Calvin.  Why can't you understand?"  She stepped away from him and turned and headed for the door.  "Stop trying to meddle in my life.  I don't try and meddle in yours."

As Dorothea left her son's office, Calvin sat back down in his chair and reflected on her comments.  He hated that there was conflict between them, but he just had to make her understand that, in this instance, he did know what was best for her and working in such a demeaning job was not it.